Perhaps you’ve forgotten about this blog, it seems I have. Two whole months without a post! It makes me wonder what I’ve been doing, since it certainly feels like I’ve not done any work in months and months. Well, I must have done some: I’ve got my dissertation finished, or very, very nearly finished. I’m not really all that happy with it. It will get a first, I’m quite confident of that, but it won’t be the best among the thirteen or so people who are doing 50% dissertations. It might even be, ugh!, average. Maybe it’s not so bad, I’m just bored of it now. I wanted it to be amazing, but maybe I was too ambitious or, rather, too broad with my scope. It feels somehow awkward.

I’ve had a general lack of enthusiasm this year, which is a shame, since it’s my final year. The writing I’ve done just hasn’t been up there with my writing from last year. But I think I’ve just been bored. I haven’t really been inspired by anything in ages, haven’t felt a spark of electricity, like when I first read Ulysses, or even Remembrance of Things Past or, years before that, the opening page of Mrs. Dalloway. I have read some good books though, and I’ve had some good fictive experiences lately, especially with some really good games. Games like Silent Hill: Shattered Memories and Far Cry 2. Both of these create feelings in me that just can’t be achieved through books or films. Maybe I’ll write about why they’re amazing sometime.

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