A lover’s hand is where I want to lie
I can’t see myself anymore
I can’t see right or wrong

I sit in a small room
Next to a man I know as my friend
I start to cry and then my head lays at rest in his lap;
The lap of a man I now know as more than just a friend
I am confused, I am scared.

At times violence takes over me
And my vision is a blur

I smoke, eat badly and I struggle with sleep

A man held my hand
This brings me fear and that brings me tears

I hurt a man today
I put a needle in his arm
That man will die now
What an awful thing I’ve done

I lie in my lover’s lap once more
I kiss him and tell him I need him
He said nothing because he knew

Sadness takes over me
I have no control
Lord take me now
But the others feel the anger too
My actions lead and lovers depart
I feel the sadness no more

My friend is a sad man
As once was I
Tears role from his cheek
We now stand hand in hand

I don’t know if I want this
He kisses me and tells me he needs me
I said nothing because I feared

I want to help but I don’t know how
His actions build him a world of pain
His actions end his world in vain

My heart lay broken
My gut felt sick
My hands act anger
I cause the death of a man
More blood is shed
And with it no peace